Sunday, April 6, 2014

rejection

I hate being told no. For me, when someone told me no, it was like they were personally attacking me. Like I personally wasn't enough when really, it was never personal. Really it couldn't have been personal because I wasn't asking for something personal. However, I've always had a hard time detaching myself from situations and not seeing things as a personal attack.

I've haven't been rejected yet. I've been told no by people, and that hurt because of my personal attachment to situations, but I've never really been rejected yet for something I've really wanted.

invisible

I am now semi-obsessed with the song Invisible by Hunter Hayes. I heard it on tv yesterday and I have been playing the lyric video all weekend.

I'm a lyric video over music video type of person. Always have been, always will be.

The lyrics really resonate with me and some of the stuff I've been going through these last couple of months. And sometimes ( practically every time), they make me cry, thinking about them and the meaning behind them. I always find myself singing along and belting the words like some proclamation to myself; the quiet little girl ( who's not so little any more ) who has felt invisible an unnoticed her whole life.

The lyrics remind me that there are better times and that there is hope. Sometimes, hope is the only thing that keeps me sane ( well as sane as I'm capable of being).

I'm awesome if I can say so myself. I am a person who is tangible. There are people out there who know I exist and are glad. Those sad feelings I have sometimes aren't permanent.

This song makes me happy and makes me cry and makes be believe. In this crap-ass world with this complicated life, belief is something I'll always aspire for.

Point is, the song is amazing and I really good. Check it out if you have the chance. I think everyone can relate to it.



Tuesday, April 1, 2014

Inspirational Quote # 1

" The secret of change is to focus all your energy, not on fighting the old, but on building the new."

    — Socrates

Monday, March 24, 2014